She left a deep scarring on that emotional plane, and I would never feel whole, nor adequate again to face the world outside, that I would never be able to handle relationships, that I would never be confident of whoever I may be. Or maybe there isn't anyone to begin with.
In the after years, He left me wondering too.
There are times when lonliness seems too much, yet indelibly remains a part of me. There are times when it overwhelms, yet with the submersion, it is altogether subsumed, and that I lose the need for company. Such is my fate. Yet I wonder sometimes of the what-could-have-beens. Such is not my fate.
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